Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Glimpses of the Law of dharma

I did my morning journey today with Tony Robbins blasting away on purpose of life and so on....was a good refresher.... I kinda like to drill these down to the subconcious and hence repeat listening....

Then in the afternoon I was meeting a young adolecent - in his 9th....messed up in his acads and stuff so parents want me to "show the way"

I did everything but that....took him for a walk along marine drive...chatted in general.....reminded me of my 9th....man teenage can get really messed up - thats like the peak of cluelessness about what to do and yet the baseless confidence of knowing it all types....

It was a good meeting - there was no magic or anything - we agreed that he should take a learning style test which I passed on to him.....

But it was good - we talked about everything......video games....sex.....relationships.....what you wanna do in life.....girls....and all that could possibly be on a 15 year old's mind.....


At the end of it I felt really really satisfied.....though I hadn't accomplished anything....deep within the feeling you get of having done something right.....i was happy......i just loved it....and this was not even gyaan giving....it was just listening....connecting to another youngster and making him realise that he isn't a problem that needs to be 'fixed'.....letting him figure out his own solutions......


And Raviji says right after that - you have to meet my son....he too is facing problems....

Show me a teenager who is not!!! There is a problem. There is a market. And there is my law of dharma...... someday I will get down to solving it .... and living my true purpose :))))

Or maybe I am already doing it ;)


That feeling of being lost

Sometimes I feel like a hyper-active kid .... the world being a throuroughly boring place with nothing exciting to do.....

And then I begin to brood about life....you're thrown in here....without any instructions, any idea of what you're supposed to do........you're conditioned by the world around for years till you develop 'reasoning'......and still it doesn't help....

You construct some meaning into your life....or get busy with what everyone is doing.....or risk being labelled insane if the quest of eternal questions gets to you.....

So basically I am stuck on all sides....can't get myself 'involved' in stuff junta gets excited about.....its just not enough to keep me busy

Of course another good 'timepass' could be breaking rules - of course in a way that doesn't damage myself or others....but that leaves a very few options....experimentations in relationships or food...... ;)

But again it can get boring after a while....you know life at such times feels like this long 18 hour bus journey to Udaipur with no halt or any interesting scenery outside......

What do you do....sit and type on blogs.....hoping desperately that someone will come and rescue you to a more exciting and thrilling world....a more fulfilling one.....

I know its the mind-monkey that's taken me over.......its romping all over the place right now.....restless ..... i am posessed by it.....and I am letting it vent itself all over.......because i dont want to fight it.....i just want to let it be....thats the way it is.....

I will retreat to meditating.....the monkey will rest....the real me will surface....it needs nothing to be satisfied.....nothing at all to be happy....it is pure bliss in itself.....it is pure satisfaction... :)



Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Train and real estate

Trains occupy mindspace - and why wouldn't they, given that I travel 3 hrs a day on the train....thats more time than what I spend doing personal stuff, entertaining myself or with my family.....

Space in train is very much like the real estate in Mumbai

First are the windows - the best being the wind side non sunny i.e. you dont get the dhoop and wind right into your face. These seats are grabbed by the fastest and first entrants. These are like the Worlis and Nariman Points of Mumbai - people who came to the city early occupied it......just like a guy boarding a train midway cant dream of a window seat, nor can anyone just starting out dream of a home at any of these places....

Next to get filled up are the other seats - these are typically people who want to sit - wherever they can. But not stand. This can be mapped to the town side areas upto Dadar - they are not seaside but valuable in their own right

While these get occupied, so does the door. The front part of the door actually......this is like the bandra and andheri - for the noveau rich......people who've just come into the train and are willing to bet on their hanging skills to stay on.......

The rest of the door is like Kandivali - Malad - Mulund types....inconvinient but still kewl to be @........

Finally is the gangway - its this squashed place which has nothing - no ventilation, no space, people stepping on each other and stuff......Thats like the real suburbs - apna Thane, dahisar, dombivali, kalyan, virar and the like.......

And what do you make of the odd creature on the top of the train? I would say he's like someone living in navi mumbai and the likes - he has decided to ditch the damn city (the main train compartment) for comforts but is far far from the city center......

Where I end up in the train is not totally under my control - depends on so many things....

But hey I like the comparision :)))

Monday, November 21, 2005

Of lazy sundays that rock

Had a beautiful sunday yesterday.....

For one i drove all the way to Andheri, back again and then to the international airport.....was great to zoom a car :)))

and then i managed to dent it entering my society's door :(

talk abt overconfidence!!!

the other kewl thing was this sunday lunch we did....hemang, nammu et moi....three of us.....cooked our meal and had it....there is so much fun in cooking your own food.....mebbe it has something to do wt our hunter-gatherer origins....

evening again i cooked - a great pizza topping, potato shaak and made amazing toast that i was proud of :)))

an ideal sunday methinks.....totally chilled......

you need a few things for that tho.....first you need free sundays....then an enthu to cook and stuff.....and great friends to share it :)))))

perfection in life when you least expect it :)


Thursday, November 17, 2005

Baapu rox!

I sometimes just detest the kind of massive influence your parents can have over your life....I mean the first five years of your life, they get to condition you to their heart's content, you dont even have your reasoning.....

Anyways coming to the point I've figured this - that what I discover after a lot of pain, needless adventures and fight, my dad already knows....he's kinda figured it out....

Let me take a very simple example.....my dad put an address tag at the back of his sleek Sony T 610......why would someone do that to such a nice phone I wondered! I mean I would never do it ....


That till today as I was blissfully sipping Masala Milk at this Aarey Sarita that I discover that I'd left my mobile at this eating place!!! AAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGG!!! It did not even have my name tag that the finder could have returned it! Silly me!! It's so logical for someone to put a tag on the cell.....if I ever find it, I swear to myself I will do it....

Now its all settled.......I found my cell....the first thing I need to do is to go and put an address tag to it......it might be odd and silly to have....but i wanna give the honest guy who finds my cell phone a chance to return it......

So the formula is simple.....figure out what baapu's doing, find the reasons (and avoid the cheap thrills and potential losses)

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Rich experiences and experiencing richly

I always thought I wanted my life to be only about rich experiences - you know the diverse wide variety types.....

Like if at the end of life, God brings a bundle of papers and says 'here are life stories of 30 consultants....more or less the same' and then he gets out one HUGE dossier 'and here's Abhishek Thakore's'

You get the point dont you? ;)

More and More experiences....

But i realise that its equally about getting fully into the experience that you are having as well.....

Fully experiencing and enjoying it....

Had a beautiful trip to alibaug......khim actually......

Long stretches of private beach with no one to stare as you boogey under the moonlight or sit silently at the shore wondering what the hell is happening with life.....

Absolute stillness....total silence....the vastness of the ever present sea to put things into perspective......up in the sky millions of stars - twinkling simultenously though they may have happened millions of years apart.....

Rich experiences and experiencing richly - both need a lil bit of time and a lil bit of money........and i guess these are the two things that make me feel alive...very very alive.....

Friday, November 11, 2005

I'm happy

You know pre IIM days I used to think about IIM as a place where you get a gang of peple who are all over the industry....a veritable mafia......

Today I realised that it was coming true....here I was sitting right across....Sid!!!!

Sid has been a team mate right since days of the gruesome Apex (a rigrous project in Marketing). Our complimentary set of strengths led us to do a 'superefficient' project in the second year.....that apart of course, we've worked for the Culcom and stuff.....

Hard to imagine apna Sid right across the table, now a Tata man, explaining what his training needs were! It was good...I felt happy....sort of proud of Sid as well....and yeah the moment the meeting ended we went into talk about summers and football or Alibaug for Sunday.....

You may spend all your life networking but this kinda friendship is way beyond that....coz we've shared something way beyond that......

And it was funny too.....the BIIIIIIIIITCH screaming Sid right here talking corporate stuff!!! LOL :))))

Feels good to see your gang all around.....wonder if we'll ever be able to build an organisation where all people working were pals and are having a blast working together....

If a single meeting can be fun, I'm sure such a workplace would be a BLAST...

Getting clarity....

I realised that I was confused about this blog....at times I just wrote my own thoughts, not bothering about who the hell is gonna read it......

Then there were other times when I would write great 'Masala' articles and get good comments on them and feel good....

Asking people to link up to my blog, I wondered why would people who weren't friends do it? Was it something I wanted at all or not?

So also all this while, while there were thoughts there were no posts....as a writer I can express the same thought in many different ways....those which are good to read and those which are straight from the heart or a combo of both.......

Finally the confusion has ended.....This blog is gonna stay a personal blog - it is going to be about my lessons and insights on the path......very personal and only for close junta....here I write only for myself....nothing in terms of 'right' or 'wrong' and stuff.....

Then I'll prolly start another blog that will have more JAM POV type articles....you know the ones that are more article material.....

Lesse how this one goes :)